See now here is the thing about me and weight loss.

I weighed over 310 pounds at one time.

That ain’t big

That ain’t chubby

Or pleasingly plump

and it ain’t cuddley folks,

that is FAT even at 6′ 1.25″

(I was shocked to find I have shrunk about a half an inch in height).

I am not sure how much over 310. I was weighed at the Dr’s office at 310 after I had lost some weight and my size 48 pants were loose. So I figure I peaked at about 315 pounds. I slowly dropped from that peak to about 295 pounds.

Then I went on a “diet” and I stayed with it for more than a year. In that time I went from the aforementioned 310 to 245 pounds. I was wearing a size 42 waist and I was no longer wearing XXL shirts. I felt great about the weight loss and I had more energy and I started to “reward” myself with “occasional” treats.

Before I could even realize it I was back to bad habits and I had put back on 60 pounds and was back over 300 pounds.

I am angry at myself for allowing that to happen.

So I am committed to really working on changing not just what I eat but how I approach food, friends, life in general so I can be healthier, not just in body but in mind.

Why pick a big number? 70 pounds is a big number I guess but it only represents 24.5% of my body mass. It will take me to a weight where I was healthy and fit. Certainly there is MUCH more to the equation than the loss of weight. First I need to lose a little weight, then I need to exercise, but that is an entirely different rant.

When you weigh around 300 pounds even losing 10 pounds is such a small amount that it hardly makes a difference in how you look much less in how you feel. 10 pounds is only 3.4% or so off my starting weight.

My goal is not really to lose weight you see. I have never been a small goal person. I always function best when pursuing the big change and the big goal.

I am not doing this so I can fit in my thin man clothes again (yes I still have some). It isn’t even so I am not so uncomfortable in airplane seat.

My goal is to see my youngest child grow to adulthood and frankly I am really afraid that that will not happen if I do not set big targets and aggressively attack them.

Why do this on a blog in front of my friends? 2 reasons: 1) for the support. I know my friends will encourage me and root me on 2) for the pressure. I have declared my intentions and now I feel the pressure to perform and I perform well under such pressure.

So I will post from time to time what I have lost and how it is going and I hope it will not bore you all to tears. As it really becomes noticeable I will post some pictures of the thinner me.